Suffering from anxiety and depression isn’t always easy for the sufferer to understand. The symptoms are not understood by most people and family and friends usually do not understand what the sufferer is going through. This makes understanding what you are feeling much more difficult in the long run. But there is help out there that can give you the ability to understand depression and anxiety and many forms of treatment in today’s world that can make life easier and more livable.
When I began to have panic attacks and anxiety attacks I had no idea what the problem was. I just knew that when these attacks began I would feel as if my heart would leave my body and I would perhaps die. I would sweat and my heart would race the room would turn dark and at times I would pass out from the fear. The problem was that the fear didn’t seem to have any beginning or end it just came on me for no reason at all. .These attacks happened at random in the grocery store or on the sidewalk and most often in my workplace.
The attacks began to take control of my life, I began hiding in my home and was afraid to go out in public since when an attack happened some places people would call 911 and then I had to deal with medical personnel. That however, made the attacks even worse trying to find a way to deal with the medical personnel and convince them that I did not need to go to a local hospital.
The first step in my dealing with these illnesses was to recognize that I had a problem and it needed attention. I had to admit to myself that I was suffering from something that I could not deal with on my own. Once I came to that conclusion I entered into care with a Psychologist. It was during the treatment by my doctor that I learned my anxiety and depression stemmed from my workplace and contacts that I had in the workplace.
It was difficult to find this information about my co-workers since I had been with my company for almost 22 years and had thought all was fine. Little did I know that the harm I suffered while working with these dysfunctional women would have an impact on the rest of my life. The story of how they caused my anxiety and depression is long and drawn out so probably not productive at this time.
During my years in treatment I learned how to cope with the anxiety attacks and depression so that I was able to begin working again, however, I had the use of a Service Dog as my daily companion. Her function was to notify me if my blood pressure and breathing began to raise and at that time I was able to go to a private area while the attack took place. This magnificent animal was my life line so that I could finish the last 3 years of my employment and take early retirement.
I recently lost my Service Dog to cancer and I must admit that the attacks have come a few times after her passing. But with the breathing exercises and bi-feedback I was taught by my doctor I have been able to cope with the anxiety attacks. Depression has been a little more difficult to deal with since my guide has passed away but I am learning to cope with those bouts and how to deal with them.
In the end I suppose anxiety attacks and depression are controllable with proper treatment and training in how to handle these attacks in many situations. I know that the difficulty I had dealing with them was common and without intervention I would never have been able to cope. I strongly suggest if you feel that depression and anxiety are ruling your life that professional help be sought immediately. These problems can be dealt with and a person can learn to live with them and function in our world just as normally as anyone else.