Now days, it seems that whenever I do decide to read through the local newspaper, I’m finding that it could end up sending me on an emotional roller coaster. Take today’s paper for example. An article heading caught my eye: “Reported Shooting, 2 Deaths Investigated”. And I found myself reading about a 21 year old young lady who had just been released from a four month stint in jail seven days ago and [perhaps] unbeknownst to her, the 57 year old man that she was involved with was driving around the area looking for her; just to talk? or to continue where they left off in their relationship? or to make sure that she was okay? You would have hoped that one of these three questions would have been the answer. But unfortunately, in this case, he was looking for her to put an end to whatever he thought was afoot.
And mind you, I read the article without knowing any more details [than the writer was able to disclose] as to what all could have possibly caused the events to take place in such a manner. So I was left to my own devices: to speculate as to why they were even involved; to judge harshly as to what the young lady saw in this much older man – why he felt the need to be with her; and then to feel remorse for judging them when I don’t know all of the facts – or know them at all. I try to convince myself that I have no right to judge anyone … because the Bible says so. But then what is expected of me when I read an article like this? From start to finish I believe that I went through [in a matter of minutes] what some would consider ‘the stages of grief’; and I ended up physically exhausted because of it.
SHOCK – was my first emotion in regards to the fact that this man shot her when and where he did.
GUILT – because I can honestly say that my past is not without blemish.
ANGER – angry at both of them for ever getting involved; looking for [what amounts to] love in all the wrong places.
DISBELIEF – because the article said that after the man shot her, he got out of the truck to pick up the bags she dropped. And he told a bicyclist that happened by
SADNESS – for everyone involved. Sadness for the young lady. And yes, believe it or not, even sadness for the older man. And for their respective families and friends as well.
DEPRESSION – reading the article made me wonder if this could ever happen to my own daughter [now 20 years old]. She’s away at college right now and I feel that I can’t protect her.
ACCEPTANCE – finally realizing that there are things beyond our control that we must face head on – the good, the bad and the ugly – sometimes all at once.
…this is just my view…