I have not disappeared and I have no creative juices flowing now. I am now into over a week and a half of this flu. I am going to the doctor on Monday for my physical. I hope that I can get an antibiotic or some kind of hope that this will not go on forever. I feel isolated and miserable.
I was in the house for 6 days and then only went out to the drive-thru at Arby’s so my poor housebound puppy dog would have a little lift from her depression. I had to go to work and taught a class on Wednesday and then on Friday. I am dragging through trying to convince myself that I am feeling better. I felt better on Wednesday, worse on Thursday, better on Friday and worse today.
I am using airborne, cold medications and that mucous stuff and I am really really getting sick of being sick. I just want you all to know that I have not felt like writing or even reading much because of my physical misery. I don’t even have a poem to share. I don’t know if I should pray to get well or just to be put out of my misery.
So please keep me in your prayers I am really discouraged. I haven’t felt well in a long time even before I had the flu. I suffer from chronic allergies and sinus problems. Shots haven’t helped. I went to see an ear, nose and throat doctor and have been using that Neilmed nasal irrigation stuff and doing all that I am supposed to do. I am just really tired of being miserable.
To top it off I feel guilty for complaining. I have had several friends die recently and two pending from cancer. I complain more than they do and did and I can’t even begin to think about how miserable I would be and how much I would bitch and complain if I was dying.
As you can tell I am not in a good place so please keep me in your prayers and know that I really love you all.
I have to add at least another 40 words here too or it will be deleted because it no longer meets the requirements of AC. If I would have written this in poetry form it would be okay. So I am just adding a few more words of misery just so I can let you know what is going on in my miserable life.
If I survive I will write a review on a really great book I read while dying from this flu. That is when I could read when I wasn’t dealing with the horrible migraine headache that has gone along with this hideous flu beast.
I think that this should suffice now with word content. I am off to my misery again. Please remember me in your prayers. Love to all Shana